feelings

this is how i feel...i can't lie anymore that i love you with all of my heart. but i know you don't feel the same and i know too that you can not be my special one. yeah in the past i've become yours and now it doesn't. i just can't telling you that i'm still in love with you. because, i know you will get il-feel to me and you will hate me. and i don't want if that happened. so, i just can telling to my bestfriend and anyone who i give a confidence. only one hope that i want to be come true. i want to be his friend(again) or his moodbooster. but, what i've got? i've got nothing. be his friend(again) is more difficult than be his enemy. i don't know why i still love him eventhough he ignored me. how poor me..
things that i hate is that her mother being nice to me, but him?not at all.

and finally......

i decided to forget him&move on but I CAN'T. everyone telling me that i can do that if i have a intention and willingness. EASY TO SAY HARD TO DO! i promised to myself that i will forget him&move on. maybe, i just need a time. yeah i need more times. i wish that i can found someone else better than him and love me more. i know, my lord just do the best for me and he's wrote a sweet love story that someday will be happened to me. believe and believe that miracle will be come. i believe that i can found someone else better than him. and for him...he's like a thief, he take out my heart and never returned again. YOU'RE SUCKS BOY! I HATE YOU! *biglies*

i wish that you will read this post and you will regrets what you have done to me. HAHA
only me who's love you like this. nobody else.